Saturday, February 15, 2014

Where I'm at

My friend just shared this remarkable post from Jon Acuff who I had the pleasure of meeting face to face a couple of years back. I'm not personal friends with him, but just another of one of his fans. Reading this has made me want to write-not that I hadn't wanted to earlier, I just thought, I better grab this chance to write when I can.

I am
-physically getting stronger. Six months ago the word burpee was not in my vocabulary. 5 am wake ups were something I did when I had nursing babies or prep time for grad school.
-grasping at healing emotionally from MILs passing. There are good days and bad, thinking about it too much still makes me wince and feel like I'm pulling off the worst bandage of my life.
-rediscovering cooking. Really cooking. Paleo cooking. Whole food cooking. Instagram, Facebook, Paleo bloggers, the farm stand as inspiration. Boxes/cans are not the primary focal point in my pantry (but I have more cooking pans/tools than I did last October (thankful to my MIL for her kitchenware)
-am a mother who is realizing that her sons and daughter need to see me for who I am, and all my shortcomings. I can't be supermom, and I appreciate when they lend a helping hand to both their dad and me.
-I'm me. A mess of medium long hair that needs to get colored again, nails done, and an updated wardrobe. Yet I can be counted on to make treats for church (16 dozen this morning!) and focus on when I need to be mom or wife. I still have a love of reading, scrapbooking, and couponing, just add foodie and gym rat to the list. I'm me. Rediscovering who I am at 34 1/2, learning grace and being okay with where I'm at. I'm me.