Wednesday, June 19, 2013


It hangs over my head-the suffocating blanket of lack of control-and I do what I can-what I hope will ease it. Yet it's a daily struggle, every time I step onto the broken floor, see dishes in the hall bathroom *rare, but it happens* or the boxes slowly getting added to in the living room, and I cannot wait for it to be over. Yet, I'm reminded that this is such a first world problem, and I look for peace. I don't have to go far to be reminded of blessings in front of me-but yet I look for peace. It comes in waves, and I look to cling to them.

My reading material to get me through: No More Perfect Moms and Unglued. Both authors, respectively, Jill Savage and Lysa TerKeurst, I find relatable, honest, and real. I need that. My sanity needs that.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Here or there, or anywhere

'I had to take a break from blogging-it was needed-for my sanity and well being, I needed to focus on the needs of my children and my husband. Who is this woman and what has she done with the real me? Suffice it to say, the past 6 weeks have been one rolling event after another-with little to no downtime to recharge. I didn't realize how tired I was until Robert let me sleep until I woke up, and it was already 8:30 am. Completely unlike me (since I'm usually up at 5:45 a.m.-6 a.m.). I am relieved summer is here-for so many reasons-first of which the time is our own to do as we wish. This is always the time of year I have to remind myself not to be envious of homeschoolers/unschoolers, for this is their normal-and we all do what we can for the sake of our family.That said, I love summer, it definitely is our downtime.

The kids are signed up for 3 different Vacation Bible Schools-their choice, I just told them about them and asked for their input. We tend to our puppies-yes, puppies They are now 11 week old Australian Heeler/Border Collie mix, although our female looks more german shepard *all the nine puppies from this litter looked different from one another. Best decision we've made regarding pets now that we can handle all that comes with owning pets.
We also have the massive kitchen remodel-which has yet to be demolished. Add in various trips, my brother's wedding, trips to the Bay Area, beach, all over the state, it adds up to downtime for the kids and I. Who am I kidding? It sounds less like downtime, but it will be fun, and I couldn't ask for anything more than having my kids alongside me for the summer. I have gone back and forth on whether to pull the plug on this journal-yet I'm not there yet on doing it. I don't havew many readers, but I do like having a place for me to express my thoughts-and chronicle what is going on in my life. So that said, I have high hopes for a regular schedule-but life happens. The break is over though, the blog entries I want to write down exist.