i love to read. read magazines, online communities, newspapers, you name it, chances are i've either read it, or mean to read it. today however, i read something that just made my heart swell. it was the blog of a momma i know from a mom's group. the mom of one, she reminds me of how i was with one child. i may have been thoughtful about money then, but nowhere to how i am now. i seriously have changed perspectives-i definitely think going to grad school has broadened my perspective on life, the ups and downs, the cruelness of others, and the sheer kindness of strangers. i think what i need to do is twofold-one, i think its time i try to go back on my meds for ppd-i have a couple of refills left before my next exam, and i've debated for awhile whether to refill it-i'm not sure if my money worries are tied into this, but given how my mood swings have been since having baby e, anything is possible. secondly, i'm not going to just use this blog for finances, but for my daily ramblings too-most of it is tied into money, but others into different facets of my life. i think by documenting the goodness of my life i can once again feel whole. i miss who i was; then again, maybe i just lost sight of who i've become, and need a space within to write, dream, breathe-without a child nursing, or clinging to my leg, or a husband asking me for the umpteenth time where the ketchup is in the fridge. this is me. and who i want to be.